This has happened to me before and I've disappointed myself and C when money and time and effort failed to pay off.
But I don't want to mope here. This simply means that I have to make a decision. Should I continue to take classes to enhance my skills in a field that may not have a place for me, or do I head in a new direction yet again? The idea of a new direction does not bother me in itself. I need new challenges and to be productive for me to be happy. I'm not made to fill a dent in the couch. I have to keep busy.
And I will, but more on that in a later post.